I have been away from Weebly for quite a long time! I am not sure why exactly because sometimes there are just so many things that I wanna write but at the same time I think things are not meant to be spread around. Haha. I guess I am quite a secretive person, ey? Hmm.. One of the things that I have realized about myself is that I tend to mask what I really feel sometimes and just show my usual presentable expression. I tend to not share my personal details with people although some may not be too personal. Often I restrict myself from talking unnecessarily because words can be sharper than swords. We may never realize how things that we say may indirectly hurt someone's feelings or leads to unintentional confusion. But I do want to criticize this opinion of mine as I have learnt some things in life by reading what others have to say, even something quite personal to their life. For example, Vivy Yusof is one of my favourite bloggers! How can one not smile reading her blog posts! She is so funny and her writing reveals that she is quite a down to earth person. And she is doing something that she is passionate about which is FASHION! (Remark: Have i said that I love fashion too. Like super passionate to fashion.)
But the fashion industry in Malaysia is a bit too saturated now and entry barrier makes it even harder to compete with those big established brands. Unless I do have something really unique and special to offer. In regards of saying that, I do believe that things happen for a reason. Now I am doing Doctor of Biotechnology in University of Queensland and i super enjoy it too. Besides the 4 years of doing the science subjects and the research on drug for stroke, I am finally able to also learn the business-econs-finance subjects too. In my doctorate I am supposed to master the commercialization skills and knowledge for the future of the biotech products. Therefore I am supposed to be the middle person that should know the scientific knowledge and the business knowledge in detail to ensure the biotech product (medical-related such as medicines, supplements etc) penetrate through the market well. All in all, I believe that a responsibility is bestowed upon me to be able to do that :P (I hope so!) This is not only for the profit or from the business perspective but also to educate the society if there is something great about a scientific product that they should know.
Jeng jeng jeng!
Haha! I think I have maneuvered a lot from the title that I put. I actually wanted to announce that I am now 20 weeks pregnant! And we have also discovered the gender of our super cool baby! We have decided to name HIM Mikhail or Mikhael! :D :D hehehehehe! I am so happy!!
I also blame the unstable hormones for making me even more private, sensitive and sometimes a bit needy and clingy! Ooops! Yup. I don't know, really. I think i have been behaving well but sometimes certain situations that I have lead myself into reveal that I may be a bit more clingy? *should ask Mr Husband on this*. Haha. Hurm.. So in the end I lead myself into thinking I should distract myself with other things by making myself busy on the net or just scrolling down Facebook uninterestedly. I get annoyed when he checks Fb too often when I am in front of him. Haha. Controlling much? Blame the hormones.
Anyway, he always knows how to cheer me up again. So I can smile again. But I do remind myself to divert my attention or neediness to other things so that I don't look 24/7 for him. Hmm. why do i sound like a baby? I am supposed to be more in control now that i am going to be a mom.
Okies, I am quite sleepy now. Good nite~ *I should make more 'doa' now that I have a baby in my tummy and I need to be more responsible.